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Currently Listening Things We Lost in the Fire By Low in metal see related

* gasp *

admissions apps: done. "just" the rest of financial aid to go.

spring approaches...

He who sacrifices thank offerings honors me, 
and he prepares the way
so that I may show him the salvation of God.

-- Psalm 50:23

p.s. rant alert: people with mobile phones who neither answer their calls nor return them are complicating my life. why? why would people ask you to call them when they don't pick up or return their calls?!? and folks wonder why i prefer email... o.k., rant's over; thanks for listening

Currently Playing Orange By Yuji Oniki "amnesiascape" see related

it's been an eventful couple of weeks since my last update yet not in a way that probably makes for very interesting reading. but hey, i said i'd plop something else down here over three weeks ago, right?

i've been fighting a cold since october, and it morphed into a sinus infection near the beginning of january. shortly after i dropped my last post, i caught this flu that was passing through the city, and the combination of that with the sinus thing knocked me out for about two weeks straight. the flu was like a really bad chest cold; it sapped up my strength and made rest the only viable, long-term subject for a productive day. just taking a shower or cooking up some instant ramen would exhaust me; i'd have to sit around for half an hour or so before i could do anything else. about the only thing i accomplished apart from sleep and survival was some good prayer, bible reading, and a lot of dvd-age, e.g. a&e's pride & prejudice (complements of e.j.) and the whole, stinkin' neon genesis evangelion series (complements of ethan).

i'm feeling pretty good right now, but i'm not completely well in a pre-autumn sense. i usually only get really sick once a year, but i guess it's something of a bumper crop for viral agents this time around. being sick sure does help me appreciate not being sick, though. it made me think of all the people living under conditions of malnutrition and inadequate medical resources all over the world--even right here in the good ol' u.s. of a.

i remember shortly after jesse passed away, the only people i wanted to spend any time with were close friends who had also lost a loved one somewhat recently. death just isn't one of those things you typically like to dwell upon; it's difficult even to relate well to someone coping with it in some manner, let alone keep them in your thoughts and prayers in an extended fashion. i guess the same thing sort of goes for the sum of illness and pain in the world. have you (or has someone you know) ever prayed something along the lines of, "God, let my heart break over the things that break yours"?  i remember when He began to answer that prayer of mine how overwhelming the experience occasionally became. it dawned on me a couple years ago that only someone with infinite fortitude could handle perfect, omniscently informed compassion. extrapolating the matter, it's like any single perfection requires all the others. i'm glad the Lord has used my bout with fairly innocuous illness by world standards to help me be more mindful of those who are suffering, but i'm also glad He keys me in on these things a bit at a time! i can be so apathetic when it's all said and done. growing out of that hurts, but it's worth it.

i got over the flu just in time to send off my application to princeton before the due date. i'm working on regent's right now, and hope to finish off all the others in the next week or so. thing is, i keep finding these extra documents i need to fill out in addition to the main app, so the process is sort of dragging along. a lot of my friends are moving away from Jpusa right now, and a lot of other people are moving into the place. i wonder what life will look like a good six to eight months from now... many thanks to those of you who have graced my end of xanga lately despite my inconsistency here. i want to catch up with each of you, but they don't call them "deadlines" for nothing. as time allows...

jacob

p.s. mixing pu-erh with munchkin and the company of friends like these folk is a wonderful, dysfunctional experience; i think i've found my late sunday afternoon ritual.

p.p.s. happy birthday, nik!!!

Currently Playing Things We Lost in the Fire By Low "sunflowers" see related